A Girl and Her Bird

I have this amazing daughter who loves every animal she meets, no matter what it is she falls in love, hence our three dogs!  She found a baby bird outside, it had fallen out of its nest, poor baby and she naturally tried with all her might, but to no avail, the bird lived about 24 hours.  I had tried to prepare her for this, even though she was positive she could keep it alive, she woke up every two hours to feed and water her, made her a bird house the whole thing, but still there was not a chance this bird was going to make it.  The next day was rough, the bird died, and Taylor cried half the morning, she has suck a gentle kind spirit, and loves to help everyone, especially animals.  This was one of those mother moments, when you know that all you want to do is take away all her pain and sorrow and you can do nothing more than sit on the couch, hold her, and let her cry.  I wanted to reach into her heart and make it all go away but I could not.  I too tried to save a baby bird, who died when I was little, and sharing my attempt seemed to lessen the pain a little bit for her but the best part, bonding over our birds, we loved briefly, but realizing that we are not in control, of these things.  We wish we could be, and believe me I prayed for that bird to make it just a week or a little longer so she could enjoy her new found friend, but I guess God knew what was best for her and our bird, and took the bird sooner than she liked, it was one of those heart wrenching lessons but all I can say is I am glad she had the opportunity to pursue the love and care of the bird, for a big part of love is loss and letting go.

For Mothers Day

How, I have been dreading this day of celebration for the past year, I did not want it come, I did not want to celebrate it, all I wanted was for it to pass me by, for this one day meant one thing, a year since we lost our mother.  Yes, she died on May 8, 2011 but to me the date has no significance, she died on Mother's Day, try as I may, this will be the day I remember her passing, no date or number will make that change in my head.  Well I had convinced myself I was ready to face the day, I was not, I got my first migraine headache and was in bed all day, guess that was my way of coping, so we celebrated on Monday, which was perfect for me!  I got a brand new fire pit for our patio, we will be using it all summer and fall, I hope! So as we roast hot dogs, and make Smores outside, I will be grateful for the life my mother did give to me, her legacy will continue through us her children and grandchildren, and she will be remembered as she was our mother, perfect with her imperfections.  I have learned so much about forgiveness, love, loss, grief, trials, and tragedy this past year, I wish it would not have happened all at once, but it did and does so I shall get up and carry on with the life I have been blessed with and hope and pray that I live my tomorrow today, for my tomorrow may never come!

For you mom.....your highly valued grandchildren, all together!

We love and miss you daily!