Ortega Family Times: October 2012

Monday, October 22, 2012

Memories

I have been going through my mothers basket as I call it. It's not an easy task, tears come, giggles come, anger comes, but most of all it is a reminder that I'm 35 and I don't have a mother. Passing away at 50 on Mothers Day was cruel and unfair to her children. So for the last few days I have had this recurring dream of our mother being zipped up in her living room into a body bag, she was cold, my mom was never cold and I just wanted to clean the blood from her face but I was not allowed to do that. I watch that gurney being taken out of her house and I can remember not being able to see because the tears are flowing so hard I can not see anymore. We go back in her home and I just remember sitting in her room wondering why her, why so young, why my mom, why this day? I hate these dreams. I want them to stop.

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Friday, October 19, 2012

It has been a while

So whats new here at the Ortega Casa.......oh so many things! We are getting our grove back and making things work, though it can be challenging some days, but that makes it fun I suppose. I for the very first time since becoming a mother left my children with their grandmother and left for a long weekend, to see an old friend from New Mexico, she is amazing, and watching her as a mother now was truly an amazing event. She is a great mom, and her little boy is just as sweet as ever, I had a great time with him too. The great news my grandmother, dad, and the children all lived. It was great, the hardest part was coming home it took forever, I just wanted to see my kiddos! I brought them home all treats and then we all slept in my bed well minus the oldest of course.

So here are some pictures of what we have been up to