Day 25

What's in my bag

A wallet from Disney World, that my awesome daughter bought me, and it is pink, bright pink

Checkbooks

Mail, I still need to put in the mail

Wipes

Band aids and Neosporin

Hand Sanitizer

Various Makeup and Scrunchies

Toys, Cars, Papers, Pens, Pencils, and various items that my sweet children think I need to carry in my bag

Day 24

My favorite quote or Bible Verse:

Any woman who can kneel before God, can stand before anyone!

Now, this speaks to me on so many levels.  First, being that prayer is such a critical part of our lives, there is one and only one who knows out true hearts and he loves to hear from us openly, honestly, and of course he listens, even when we are praying about the hard things, he wants to hear them from us, have us confess these things to him so that we can heal and restore our relationship with him, we will be standing before him one day.  Secondly, we live in a world where people can be cruel, say hurtful things, and not think before they speak ( I am so guilty of this ), so when someone says something totally inappropriate, I always feel better when I say nothing and know that I have started my day of kneeling and Jesus knows the truth so I can stand in his love and his truth, nothing else really matters at that point. 

I found this online, and I just love it.  I am striving to be LADY, every day!

Day 23

SOMETHING I CRAVE.......

My secret love, salt and vinegar chips, I am obsessed, they are the most delicious things in the entire world, at least to me.  I never keep them here at our house, or I would sit and eat them all day, and maybe through the night, I only get a bag when we go to Subway, but they are so delicious!

Day 22

Something that makes me different, wow this kinda might make me out to be a freak of nature or something!  I am only kidding!!

Things about me that make me different from the normal, if there is such a thing, I guess not much. I am pretty conservative, no not the conservative boycotting abortion clinics, and funureals, just conseravite, it was placed on my heart to be more modest in our dress, so we did, some people find this strange, I find it normal.  We homeschool, I like, no scratch that, I love having my children home, they make me laugh, cry, scream with frustration somedays, but overall they are just amazing people, and watching them learn and laugh together is great, note this love and laughter with each other does not happen every day!!!  I like to read, to think, to dream, and to create, which I think is pretty normal too.  We are a family, we do almost everything together, these moments are fleeting and fast, so I am learning to make the most of them, take the good with the bad, the joy with struggles, and the tears with the smiles.  That is really what life is all about!

Day 21

Post a picture of something that makes me happy, and it is going to be a hard thing to do.  Why you ask??? There are so many things that can make me smile, and make me happy, we have been through a tumultuous year, and the smiles and happiness are still there, that makes me smile, but there are no pictures of this, which is probably a really good thing, I might add.  The thing I hold onto the most though is my family, through it all this has always made me smile, so here is another shot of our awesome family!

This is in Florida, and does not include all our children, but when looking for a family picture to share this one came up, made me smile, and this was such a happy day, Savannah and Isaac discovered this little (not really) dinosaur and we spent the better part of an hour just climbing up him, and sliding down him.  It was fun to see how many different ways we could get to the top of him.  See just the little things that make me smile :)

It's Not Fair

So this last sixteen months has been well, challenging to say the very least but tonight I was pouring over some journals, deciding on ones to pack away permanently and the recurring theme was IT'S NOT FAIR, three small words with such deep meaning at least to me. True, it was not fair, I did not make the decisions that have profoundly impacted my life, but the truth is I can complain about how unfair it is, or change it for the better! In all honesty when I was reading, I had this vision of Jesus walking to the cross moaning and groaning about how unfair it was he had to die, there really was no fairness in this gift he gave freely to us all. So then I began to really ponder this question WHAT IF he walked to his death grumbling, complaining, and pouting the entire time? WHAT IF on the cross, he cried out, it's not fair, instead of "forgive them father"??? Wow, the entire story would have ended so differently, for not just him, but for millions of people, who knows what would have happened.

Yes life sometimes is not fair, and things occur that shake us to our very core, and break the hearts he gave us, but we through perfect grace have a choice on what we choose to do with the unfairness, complain or walk through it with grace and most importantly humility! Wow, I have A LOT of work to do!!!!

Day 20

Write a letter to someone........
I write letters all the time, the truth is I just never mail them, I'm sorta writing a letter now that would be the purpose of this blog. I keep journal upon journal and to be honest probably overshare in these, so I should probably burn the ones I never want to share. Oh well I hope someday when I am gone these letters will be a piece of me for my children and they can go back and read, the good, the bad, the joys, the tears, the happiness, the sadness, you see it will be my life, my memories, what has shaped and molded me into the person that they came to know, and hopefully love!!!