Wow, an entire week has past sine the day you were born, it seems too be going by so slow, yet so fast, it could just be my sleep deprivation though. Today was your due date, twice I was told you were going to be a girl, I just always knew I was having a boy though and sure enough I got a Brandyn not a Britney. Your birth was an amazing thing, you gave me something I have been dreaming of since I was seven or eight and sticking baby dolls in my nightgown with my cousins pretending we were all going to be mothers, I will show you pictures some day, the title mother. What does that mean for me, for you, will I be enough, will I fail you, can I make you proud, will you love me, will be enough for each other, all these questions run through my mind as I sit and watch you sleep, you are so fragile, and yet so tough, yes I can see it in your eyes all ready. I am so proud of you and all you do is eat, sleep, and throw up on me. I gave you your first bath today, and I was terrified I was going to drop you or you would fall out of my arms, well you survived and so did I. I look forward to playing with you, walking with you at times that are not between 2 and 4 am. I am grateful I get to take so much time off from work to be with you, you are the single most important thing in my life, I look at you and wonder how this happened that I could have a son, a beautiful son. You are inspiring me to do more and be more, I love you and am so proud that I am your mom, no one else will ever have that job. I can not wait to grow with you, to learn with you, see what you like to do, what you will be, what you will like, what you will not like. Just know that you are sitting right here beside me in your bassinet and I feel like I won the lottery!!!! I love you son!
Happy Birthday,
Your Mother
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