What I Will Miss

I will miss you

I will miss you waking next to me in the morning

I will miss you holding me in bed when the power goes out

I will miss our bedtime routines with the kiddos

I will miss cooking for you

I will miss the way you held my hand

I will miss the way you made me feel safe

I will miss waking up to you

I will miss making your coffee

I will miss your smile and your goofy jokes

I will miss talking to you

I will miss our holidays together

I will miss you telling me every Christmas Eve at 2am, that Santa did a great job 

I will miss you fixing things

I will miss our walks

I will miss the way you brush the hair out of my face when it is windy

I will miss you 

With all the things that I will miss, there are a few I wont miss!  I will finally be free of lying, pain, false apologies, my anger, my frustration, the feelings of unworthiness you left me with, the tears and the sorrow, the terror, the anxiety and the panic!  I am finally working on me, I hope and pray you will do the same.  You are and forever will be with me, as seventeen years don't just get shut off.  I love you enough to let you go, I hope that you can learn this lesson too, but that is not my choice.  Happy Anniversary!  I wish you well and together or apart I love you because I can and choose to forgive!